You Aren't Alone In Your Struggles

Wednesday, September 6, 2017

It's important to acknowledge that the parts of a person's life that we see online are not the entire picture. What we see are only the best parts.

And that goes for me too.

You see my best self. My social media, my highlight reel, my game face. That isn't everything.
You see the light, not the shadows.

People have told me that they can't imagine me getting upset, that I'm easy-going and agreeable. It's nice to hear, but at the same time I end up feeling discouraged, because I know that it's only half true.

I wish I was the person they already think I am.
I wish I was always as calm and chill as I'm already perceived to be.
Instead I'm irritable and stubborn.

I want to be better. I want to be able to have a bad mental health day without crumbling. I want to have emotions without letting them take over. I want to take all of the bits and pieces you see and stick them together until I am new.

We all have our own struggles and down days, I know that. But it doesn't make those moments feel any less isolating. In those moments, it feels like I am the only one. It feels like quicksand – I'm sinking and my efforts are a waste.

I'm fortunate enough to have people to reach out to in those situations. They remind me of my good qualities that I'm having trouble seeing. They assure me that my feelings are valid and that I'm not alone. I hope this does the same for you.

You aren't alone in your struggles. We all have flaws, even if our feeds look flawless.

I don't always like who I am. Maybe if I keep writing about it, if I'm honest about it, it'll get better, for me and for you. Maybe it'll help part the clouds and let some light in.

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